Complicate Me
(The Good Ol' Boys #1)
by
M. Robinson
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Genre: Contemporary Romance
Release Date: September 14, 2015
Cover
Design: Rebecca Marie at The Final Wrap
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~ Synopsis ~
It was complicated, it was
also just the beginning.
A decision.
A simple choice.
There is always that one
moment in life where things could have been different. That one moment where
you could have chosen a path that would lead you down a certain road.
A different life.
It was easier to pretend that
we were still best friends, and that she was my girl and I was her boy.
Pretending was better than
knowing the truth...
I. Ruined. Us.
I had her.
I lost her.
I love her.
~ Excerpt ~
My
brown eyed girl sat on our blankets with her arms wrapped around her knees,
hiding her face. The tiny frame that I adored so much shook uncontrollably,
only heightening the deepest sobbing that escalated with each passing second.
It was such an intimate moment, not to be shared with anyone, especially me.
Alex didn’t cry. I watched her bawl for the first time in my life. I had never
seen anyone cry like that before, and it shook me to my core, slicing me whole,
and making me feel like I was dying. Carving a memory that I would take to my
grave.
There
was no going back…
No
erasing.
No
do overs.
No
deleting.
What
I witnessed tonight would be my purgatory; I would now close my eyes and
forever see her falling apart in front of me. Shattering before my very own
eyes and I found it hard to breathe.
Hard
to move.
My
feet were glued to the goddamn floor as she continued to weep, sob, bawl,
violently sucking in air that wasn’t available. I accepted it all; each tear
that fell from her face becoming pieces of me. Circulating through my veins and
blood, it flowed endlessly, a river of her sadness and sorrow and of my broken
promises. No beginning or ending to her cries, just an infinite current,
flooding the hole where my heart should be. The shadow of her trembling petite
body reflected off the walls, leaving a trail of regrets in its wake.
Mine.
Hers.
Ours.
Growing
up in a small town you overheard a lot of things. People talking, stories told,
town gossip. You listened a lot. You learned a lot. Tourists, townies, friends,
and especially family all shared wisdom and advice that you think you will
never need.
Bunch
of bullshit.
They
say you have that one moment in life where things could have been different,
that one moment that changes the course of your life or the direction you could
have taken. That one moment that could forever change you and everything you
wanted to be true, everything you wanted to believe.
One
simple decision could alter your entire future.
My
entire world.
I
would forever remember this moment for the rest of my life. This is the moment
that changed everything. This is the moment where I took another direction,
another road that led me to my own demise.
My
own regrets.
I
should have walked in there. I should have apologized. I should have begged for
her forgiveness. I should have promised that I would never hurt her again. I
should have done whatever it took to make her look at me the way she had our
entire lives.
But
I didn’t…
I
did none of those things…
Not
one.
Nothing
was said between us.
No
words.
No
actions.
I
was a coward and couldn’t do it. I couldn’t see her like that. I couldn’t look
into her eyes and know that I had hurt her. That I had disappointed her. That I
ruined her love and lost her respect for me.
The
boy who promised he would never hurt her.
The
boy who swore he would always protect her.
The
boy who vowed he would never let anything happen to her.
That
same boy was me.
I
was the reason she was bawling.
I
was the reason she was hurt.
I
was the reason she was broken.
She
knew the truth. It had finally caught up to me… I shattered her illusion that I
was hers. I ruined the one good thing I had in my life. The girl that owned my
heart was bleeding out for me in a way that I had never seen before. The house
was no longer our safe place.
I
had brought my hurricane with me…
I
couldn’t risk the possibility of losing her permanently if I walked in there
and admitted my truths. She wouldn’t love me anymore, she wouldn’t look at me
the same anymore, and she wouldn’t be mine anymore.
My
brown eyed girl.
The
girl that I had loved all of my life.
The
same girl that I would love for the rest of my life.
Alexandra.
I
gave her the only comfort I could in her moment of despair. I turned around and
left. I walked down the stairs and got into my truck. I turned the engine on
and drove my sorry ass home. I took a shower and never once looked at myself in
the mirror. I pretended that nothing changed. That I didn’t cause her pain, and
that she didn’t know the truth. That I didn’t see her sobbing and that she
wasn’t even bawling to begin with. That we were still just best friends, and
that she was my girl and I was her boy.
My
Half-Pint and her Bo.
It
was better than knowing…
I
ruined us.
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~ About the
Author ~
Best
Selling Author M. Robinson loves to read. She favors anything that has angst,
romance, triangles, cheating, love, and of course sex! She has been reading
since the Babysitters Club and R.L. Stein.
She
was born in New Jersey but was raised in Tampa Fl. She is currently pursuing
her Ph.D in psychology, with two years left.
She
is married to an amazing man who she loves to pieces. They have two German
Shepherd mixes and a Tabby cat.
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